Looking in out on and up.......

There is a need for concentration on whatever part of our individual,
mental, or spiritual education needs finishing as we stand on the
threshold of moving into Saturn in Libra and all the radically
different lessons that will bring. It will certainly restructure
whatever area it falls in our charts, with methods moving from known
Virgo routines into potential Libra routines.October has been a dress rehearsal for lessons to come between April
and July 2010, the last time Saturn will be in Virgo until 2036. That
will complete our Virgo lessons and restructuring.Saturn crystalizes all it touches. It gives structure, boundaries,
limitations, and clarity about things through its patient, steady
rhythm of unfoldment. The life principle symbolized by Saturn is said
to be "exalted" in Libra. That means that Saturn finds its "grounds for
greatest growth" in the sign of Libra. If nothing else, it shows the
need for responsibility in all of life's contracts. These include the
"contracts" we make with our Higher Self as well as worldly
involvements.[aquarius papers] So if Libra falls in the sun what does that mean in real terms?? Ansas on a postcard please.....
Well I gotta like this bit :) 
Libra's reasonableness and moderation are healthy antidotes for the stubborn selfish extremism that seems so prevalent today.
but I never said I was free of ALL the traps lol
Libra, when freed of the traps of superficiality, vanity, extravagance, timidity, indecisiveness, vacillation, impatience, and getting too theoretical, demonstrate a harmonious, cooperative, agreeable impartial consideration for others that brings a greater sense of belonging to everyone involved.

Despite all that is going on around me I have been able to get some crochet done, a few basics bags n slippers, started on a shawl and then got the urge to start another jacket, Kurt, Ruth's brother is going to take some good pics for me and they are on about putting it together in some kind of catalogue, so much enthusiasm and many ideas flowing...we shall see what actually becomes reality........

I am aware of this totally new energy now in my home, don't get me wrong it aint bad - just very different - something that I need to adapt to and recognise what there is to learn from it, why it is here and now.....fodder for thought

We contacted Julia [Ruth's daughter if you can't keep up or track, not surprising, am amazed I am managing to thus far] earlier to see if she and Selina, her daughter, would come out for a week.....she is thinking about it......

Thinking some more about the J boy, I cannot "blame" him, I was bordering on obsessive when it came to what one got the other did equally, or at least I believe I tried, maybe J & L see it from a different perspective, so all J is endeavouring to do now is "keep the balance"

Ruth & I spent some time this morning talking about how we perceived our kids childhoods and how they see it as they look back, 2 differing realities - so if the differences can be so great between 2 people who have shared a life for many years and to all intent and purposes have shared many of  the same experiences - is it not so difficult to understand why people of differing cultures [not shared collective experiences] cannot comprehend each other...

ooooo I have just been handed some fabby German choccy marzipanny jammy thing mmmmmmm, it has been a long day for the German contingency having taken an early flight to Alicante and then go to collect a hire car to drive on down here, so they are all crashing early....zzzzzzz......when the Killers are finished I shall shut down and head for  zeds to...........

Wednesday morning and have just gotten back from my sunrise walk with Squidge, all is peaceful in the casa as everyone sleeps and I am feeling so much better that I shall go up to the gym this morning and then see what the day has to bring/offer........

The question of whether we or anyone else deserves something is not really in our jurisdiction. These themes play themselves out in ways we can’t fully comprehend—on the level of the soul, over the course of many lifetimes. What we do know is that the universe has its own way of shifting the balance over the course of time so that all things are ultimately fair. We can trust in this process and understand that when a gift comes our way, it is because we are meant to have it. Otherwise, it would not be available to us. Accepting the gift with gratitude and using it to the best of our ability is true humility.

If you would like to begin to make the shift into half-full consciousness, try imagining your life as an empty glass. This is your life without all the people you know, the work you do, your home, or your current state of physical wellbeing. This is just an empty, open space waiting to be filled. Once you have that feeling of openness in your mind, begin filling it with all the people, things, and places that make up your life. You may be surprised to find your glass overflowing.

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Avalon Moment

Up and out before the sun rose this morning, the mist lying low in the valleys and hiding Alhaurin, Grande y Torre, Cartama and the other habitats dotted between here and the coast, deep red streaks the far horizon with tiny lights twinkling giving away the presence of Malaga, the sun rises blood red from the sea and mountains. After the rains of a couple of weeks ago followed by a true Indian summer, temps back to mid/high 20's, flowers of yellow white and orange bloom brightly amongst the spreading green blanket which covers the mountainsides through winter.

Since Friday I have been not so well, it could have been Lorenzo's balls? [albondigas I promise] dodgy batch of wine? a "bug" doing the rounds? or maybe just a good ole emotional clear out? Take yer pick, anyway s'not nice and I am still getting excruciating cramp occasionally :( As is my wont I spent some time thinking/meditating upon it - all pan in solar plexus region which equates to emotions, reflecting on all that has occurred over the past few months even year I guess and it has all been happening at what appears to me at a whirlwind speed, I'm sure it hasn't really, although the past 3 months do seem to have been constant busy-ness, I noted how certain thoughts/topics/events brought a "gut" reaction - literally, so I am experimenting with different ways of dealing with these issues and I need to learn that there is that which NEEDS to be let out in some physical way, verbally or written and sent!! and other stuff which can be sent to the recycling bin and forgotten about and then I find it has ceased to exist anyway :)
I have come to realise from odd texts from my J that he feels her is trying to keep a balance in his own funny way, Lau will have nothing to do with her Dad which J feels isn't right, so because she stays in contact with me he feels justified in keeping contact with his Dad and not me, in his eyes it is only fair......it is his path to walk although I admit to a little sadness and a little cramping too, hey ho the joys of watching our babes as adults.......

Buzzing buzy bee Val - I have just finished reading The Secret Life of Bees, Sue Monk Kidd, Sarah gave it to me when I was back in Edinburgh, loved it highly recommended!

Well today Kurt and Rufi arrive, Ruth has gone out get in plenty of provisions.....

C came round last night, ah poor lady it is but 6 weeks since her Mum died and she is still in that shocked state, but she could off load to me knowing I knew what she was feeling, in fact her first words to me were......
I never really knew what you were feeling when I came to see you last year, I only imagined and now I know nothing can prepare you for the force of that pain when it hits.........
She needed to talk and so she did, and needs to do some more so I will go see her Thursday, we were interrupted last night as unbeknown to C, Jules had asked if she could come skype her daughter after 8 when she, J had finished work, so C went on her way.......it's strange knowing of someone's pain so intimately - the is another friend who's sister died a few weeks ago and she too will be in the same space, don't fight it go with it..........for me I can't deny I think it was the worst pain I have ever felt, childbirth, operations even being told I had terminal cancer, which certainly rocked my world for a while, still no comparison!! BUT always see the beauty in each day because there always is and plenty of it if we allow ourselves to see it.... end of Avalon moment

Anne and John are back after their summer of sailing and John popped round after a couple of days saying he had been on my roof and spied a few cracked tiles, so although no tiler/roofer with get some cement and mend - he is a perfectionist so I have no doubts to his ability of doing a great job, but how kind is that, bear in mind this gentleman is now in his 70's.....

Meloni - thank you, you come to mind each day, some connection that is to fine for us to see :) Much love


Brightest Blessings


 

Monday....Tuesday....Wednesday

Well that was a different birthday - got up went to bank and then gym, back home and by 10 we were on the road to Yunquera to sort out my leccy bill, I have had a year of estimates and just before leaving for Scotland they decided to read it and the bill arrived the day I got back, it would have gone through the bank a few days earlier, and of course there weren't enough funds, so need to speak with endessa so I can pay so much a month blah blah, so nearest officina is up up up and round round round the mountain to get to Yunquera only to be told they don't deal with it any more I need to go to Pizarra or Coin, well back down down down and round round round again and off to Pizarra, the computer is down so can't do anything I will need to phone - a few expletives here - then to the garden centre for a coffee and tapas, leave there to head home, turn the key to start Cecil [the citroen] nadir not a squeak, so we start to push, joined by another lady then a guy, then a car pulls in a 2 very nice young men jump out and take over, bump started - 2 n.y.m jump back in their, fairly beat up ancient motor and drive off, talk about 2 angels appearing a the right time, thanks D xx Stop at supermarket in village, not thinking and same again, very elderly man with stick and shopping hobbles over and helps as does another lady and finally home - Cecil is now sitting facing down the road!! We walked up to the Piscina for lunch, phone call rom Wendy to say she is in village, so we wound our way down to Oasis after a very good lunch, Dougie told me no dog, so Wendy and I sat outside with our wine and caught up on 2 months of absence, a couple of hours of talking??!! I wandered home bumped into Africa, Carmen and Remy who proceeded to sing Happy Birthday very loudly in the street to me - oh blush - I invited them back, Carmen bought cakes - yummy, Zoe joined the party - much dancing and merriment and woke late this morning.........
Yes we did phone endessa, which cost an arm and a leg only to finally get hold of someone who says that they can't do anything either, it is the bank who sorts it out for me arrrrrrrrggggggg

Thank You Meloni your card arrived right on time, much love to you xx

Thanks to you to Val xx I am glad the Harley Bee is a fruit lover :) Thinking of you lots!!

Tuesday was a quiet day LOL, although I was up and about fairly early as I had asked the vet to pop down and start Squidge on her course of injections for her passeporte, our village vet is married to the guy who runs the restauraunt at the piscina so she is always to be found up there serving and helping out, so as we ate up there the previous day I took the opportunity to start the process, so having dropped her children of at school walked down to me and did the deed. Later Julio called by for a chat and cuppa as Amanda is back to work till Friday -  Ruth decided to start her 3 day fast!! Her brother and nephew are arriving next Tuesday - a German invasion hahahaha BUT is great for me as her brother likes fixing cars - how fortuitous is that!! I shall also ask them to collect some wood for me woo hoo, 2 strong men who, at least Ruth tells me, will be happy to do this; the following Tuesday Linda and her son arrive from Edinburgh - gonna be a full hoose :)
Obviously I didn't make it to the gym on Tuesday but I was back to normal [whatever that may mean] Wed and met up with Jules when she finished work for a coffee and catch up - Ruth has been reading and snoozing her way through her fast, only way to do it!! And already feeling heaps better. 
Lots of rain Tuesday night and as I write this the heavens have opened again, everywhere looks washed clean and smells so fresh...... 
Brightest Blessings to one and all, we are ALL being offered many choices now - ENJOY xx