Back Home again......

The flight home had an hours delay so we finally got back into the village at nearly 11 - ah the warmth though.......we headed straight to Lorenzo's for tapas and a nightcap, it was good to find Keith, his brother who is visiting and Julio all sitting there albeit a little *worse for wear*.
Now I am processing much of what occurred - mostly it rained in good Scottish style, having said that in Moniaive the sun shone on us and we sat out in the garden for the crones meeting LOL, on the Friday. Sat saw Sa n I going back up to Ed. Lau was being very cool with me, I think her own disappointment at not getting the mark she wanted ended up coming out at me, but hey ain't that part of being a mum; there were times when it got kinda hurtful as nothing I seemed to do or say was right, definitely a time of can't do right for doing wrong :) and there were some quite emotional times - for me I guess there is always the fear, yep I know we shouldn't allow fear to rule, but this is my weak spot, I never want our relationship to end up like my mother and me; at times it felt like Lau was becoming my mother with so much of what seemed to me like non stop criticism, she said she was trying to encourage, mmmmmmm, well I think we were both in a slightly hyper sensitive state; she has also gone through a bit if a rough patch with her fella, but seems that has resolved itself. Also she is flat hunting, so there has been a lot going on in her life, I think that the end of being a student now and becoming an *adult* played it's part too, so no wonder she was in a highly stressed state and I probably wasn't as wise as I should have been with her :(
The day of the Graduation although still wet and windy was very special and Lau looked an absolute star, it was held in a beautiful building in Glasgow, yeah she was at Edinburgh, but the Ag colleges are split between Ed Glasgow and Ayr and everyone is bussed in to Glasgow for the Grad ceremony - quite a long day all in all; back to the flat for more champagne and then we all went out in the evening joined by Lau's best friend and her fella, there was a small Caribbean restaurant 5 mins away from Lau's flat which I had spied and we decided to go there as it was a new experience for everyone, it was fabby, then off to Native State, {Lau and many of her friends have worked here throughout uni years} we oldies finally departed an the young ones carried on celebrating clubbing, woke on Sat morning a little woozy so quick coffee before heading off to bus station for the long haul home.
My biggest surprise of the trip was the arrival of J who is between jobs at the mo and up in Scotland to see friends for a few days, he arrived at Sa's and we had several hours of catching up, he was very open to me about all that is happening in his life, he is doing good and looking well.
AND I did get my tattoo :) - Sa n I were perusing pictures for inspiration and although many are very beautiful nothing reached out to me until the healing goddess appeared and so she now rests just above my heart and beautiful bluey green metallica colours - yep it was bloody painful but I am very proud of it and Lau was so chuffed with me, she is going to have the same design on her back and Sa n Maria are both having one same place but in their colours. Sa pinks and Maria reds, a symbol of our connection;
It was 10 years ago I was told I had incurable cancer so this Goddess is deeply potent for me....
I have just found i am not working today but tomorrow and Wed instead so will finish off here and head up to the gym which I have missed muchly
Blessings peace love n light
To all of you who have had birthdays in the past couple of weeks I hope you had fabby days and sorry I didn't get to send a card but I was thinking of you