8 weeks - days pass with me endeavouring to keep mind and body occupied - I don't want to think, if I do I keep coming back to "what is point?" [those who listen to Down the Line will recognise this catch phrase, one of D's favourites] - thoughts of Del saying that when we worked together we made a perfect team - so why? Del?
Thursday I went up to M at the ayunmiento to ask if she could check out whether I can have tiles rather than marble for the "headstone" and info about charges for the plot I think it runs in 5 year increments or a perpituatary agreement, I have spoken to S n P about it - I confess to being a little surprised that they have offered no help/assistance towards any of this - am I wrong in thinking they would want to help? I guess their memories are of D at Samye Ling and with their Mum of course so they are more compelled to do something at Samye Ling and his life in Spain has little connection for them........mmmmmmm.........
Also finished of the tags for the TH so a wee payment there.......also a possible order for a shrug -back n Tuesday to pay off water rates and see what the answers will be.
Met up with Jo n Dave early evenig to collect a memory stick they had kindly got me for backing up all Del's music on his pc {sadly when I tried it out the following day the pc wasn't registering it, so now trying to work out how to transfer/share the files with my pc}. I decided to pop into Lorenzo's on the way back home as it was early and I knew it would be quiet, a blazin log fire lured me in for a tapas and glass of wine, chat to Carmen - Lorenzo is diong well after his op although 2 stitches have a slight infection and he must take it easy.
Friday was not such a great day felt like I had to force myself up and out first up to the market to get a plant to take up to the cemetario, a peace lily and something that looks like heather, then met with Juio to check car, tyres fine but after sitting for 7 weeks the battery is flat so now will need to find someone with jump leads - there jusat seems to be so much stuff to deal with - no respite and no partner in crime :( I feel heavy - weighed down at times.
I did phone Mum - well it was another step I was aware of babbling on as she wasn't going to offer much, well gotta be hard for her too what is there for her to say to me after all this time when there is much we cannot talk about, but some of what she did say gave me food for thought, stuff I hadn't considered, which has to be a good thing - and maybe gives me greater perspective on mother/daughter stuff - thinking back to myself in my 20s and observing my own daughter in her 20s mmmmmmmm..........so much heart work going on...................
Cynthia called round for an hour or so as she was flying back on the Saturday and then Zoe popped round for a quick catch up and the news that the change of papers on the house will be in excess of another thousand euros, doesn't it ever end?
Saturday means I have to go out and get some shopping in for the w/e, I also get some paint dyes and after having a cleaning bout downstairs decided to paint the kitchen - looks good too all golden glow and with the morning sun hitting the crystals gives it a lovely warm feel.
I have been doing some crochet but in short bursts so have got another couple of hats - I must get pics up on crochet crook, unfortnately I can't get the phone to connect up to the pc so can't upload any pics, all this kinda hassle just depresses me as I then spend what seems like hours going round forums etc trying to find out how to rectify the problem.......
Yesterday I had a sun day Sunday, long phone call to Sa, reading on the terrace interspersed with crochet then I took the dogs up to the cemetario - Squidge knew exactly where to go, I had Barbara dog on a lead once we got up there as she is kinda boisterous and I didn't feel it would be fair to anyone else who might be up there and a it happens there were folks at a plot close to D so I went and sat outside looking down at the coast remembering how much D loved this spot and this time of year when the air is so clear the sun low and warming in the bright blue sky, eventually I saw the others leave and we went in, lit some sandalwood incense, tidied away the dead leaves and flowers, placed the new plants and had a wee chat and cry...............
Eli my thoughts are with you and I hope all is going OK, I will text a msg to José to pass o to you............
Val give in look after yourself get better.........
Raymond THANK YOU
Angie how's it going - just keep going and processing it aint easy but has to be done
hugs love and Brightest Blessings..............
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