It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues.- Abraham Lincoln
Well that's good news - means I must be more virtuous than I believed :) 3 days up at La Era and I was knackered, especially as on the Tuesday night I helped Zoe celebrate her getting her degree along with Teresa and Les, so early nights Wed and Thurs and I missed on the Rondales as I wnated to be fr4sh for the Xmas sale on the Sat morning and that was an early start too, made a few sales, it's a nice spot, under cover at the International Bar in Coin and is to become a regular event - so Saturdays there is nothing in the pueblo I shall go up there with Jo.
Today has been dank and dismal so have hunkered down with my crochet and no thoughts of dealing with anything, I did think of trying to put the new memory in my pc - pulled it out looked at all the bits of wire and pluggy things, worked out which was connected to the mains and pulled it out, but as I am very wary of anything electrical [I blew up my mother's cooker once and all I did was turn it on!!! I loathe American cars as I have always got shocks from them - I know I have quite a high electrical energy] I chickened out and decided I will wait till someone who is more knowledgeable is here with me. ON other electrical matters the heater/aircon seems to have stopped working properly and I can't remember whether D did something to it when it switched from air con to heating - ahhh shit - good job I have my ski suit - I have been perusing ebay for another, well has to be cheaper in the long run than heating bills, wrote loads of emails last night asking for leg lengths - finally one came back as long enough - and only 3squids OK I know another 8 or 9 for postage but still cheap at the price, so fingers crossed I get it......
Tomorrow I need to get head into gear again - go see Diego and organise for the "marble man" comes up from Alora so I can chose a front for Del's plot - also need to contact Frank and try and get him to leave some money for me - he still hasn't paid up for the work I did when D was in hospital - oooo how I hate having to keep asking - and Isabel tells me he thinks I don't work fast enough - in a way I wish she hadn't told me, coz it will niggle at me - I don't like working for someone who doesn't trust me - initially I feel hurt and then get angry - I work as hard as I am able and that might not be up to the speed I could work at 20 years ago but I am loyal and tend to be on hand whenever needed - also I think of the times I have done stuff for nothing for Frank - then the blood begins to boil, so not sure what I am to learn from all of this.
Despite not going out on Friday night I did go out on the terrace to see the fabulous full moon as we had a beautiful clear sky - quite incredible - and the following morning because I was up so early I took the dogs for a walks before it was properly light - the sunrise was a red streak accross the coast line and the moon was just dipping over the mounatin behind - it looked like it was gonna land on the peak, I felt fortunate to have seen such a stunning spectacle......
Les got the car bumped started on Tuesday and we took it for a wee run to boost it up and - phew - it started for me Wed morning and off I drove up to La Era - got in terrible panic attacks about it - dunno why but the ole panic attacks come upon me - mostly in the early hours of the morning - takes a lot of will power and mental exertion to over come them - still that feeling of extreme vulnerability.........the car desperately need some tlc and even if not made legal would do for work and visits to friends on the campo another one to work out. Ann can round on Friday and asked if I would like to join them to go up and have the free tapas that the bars offer and then to see the procession - also Amanda and Julio called by and asked me to join them - they were meeting up with Jo n Dave at Lorenzo's part of me really wanted to be part of it all - another part couldn't cope, The Rondales was the first festivity that D n I observed and a small child fell asleep on his shoulder, which really touched Del and sealed the deal on his love of this pueblo - he adored children and felt sad that he couldn't respond to them in the UK for fear of accusing eyes - so as well as being very tired too many memories and if I had one glass o vino too many which would be hard not to, I tend to get tearful, not what anyone wants on a "party night" - I have recollections of tears at Zoe's celebration - oh dear.......soz folks am bounding from one thought stream to another - David - I was very touched by your concern and kind words, I have probably done you an injustice - you will know me better than many in the village if you read my ramblings here and you have probably worked out by now I aint so good with people, I have difficulty in asking for help mainly coz I think people offer their help because it is "expected" and are put on the spot if actually asked........also have this upbringing that says button the emotions and get on with it - talking of upbringing I got a reply from my mother albeit 3 lines saying thanks for my email, but at least she did respond so back to me........
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